This image is in the bathroom of a then new lover, part of me is in that place, while the rest of my heart is at home still with my family and husband as I struggle with a swirling of emotions. A surreal detached feeling of emotions, the joys of budding love, while hurting another love you don't want to lose and love more than ever for his sacrafices. I have been with the "new love" almost two years now and I still love and am married to my husband of 11 years. They are both wonderful men that accept me and love me - even if they only get a part of me sometimes.